For the past nine months I’ve lived in a place of incompleteness. My heart is here and happy and full, but my heart is also being tugged back to my family.
It just happened that this year that I’ve been away, my family has been tested and tried and broken down in every which way, probably more than we ever have. The details don’t matter here for this post, but what does matter is the deep sadness that we’ve felt as a family. We have walked through a valley of darkness that seems to have no end.
My heart is constantly yearning for the comfort of talking on the couch with my mama, riding around the farm with daddy, or listening to music with my brother. My family is everything to me, and so this year apart has been incredibly difficult.
For them I feel this gaping hole in my heart. Unfortunately this great sadness has no clear solution.
But, I find comfort in what Paul tells us in chapter 8 of the book of Romans:
“In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with sighs too deep for words.” (Romans 8:26)
This isn’t going to be some long, drawn-out blog post. I just felt that I needed to share with you, fellow warrior, how God spoke to me about our sufferings.
Whatever your incompleteness, your battle, your sadness, He is there in the thick of it.
In those quiet moments when our hearts are rendered speechless, He fills the gap.
When tears fall and you gasp for air because all of it is just too much, He lifts the weight.
Those days when you ask yourself how on earth you got to this place, He answers with a gentle, reassuring whisper.
When we cannot find the adequate words to express the agony of our suffering, the Spirit steps in.
We need not say anything but a sigh, because He intercedes.
He sees our hearts, all cracked and bruised from the world, and His deepest desire is to mend us with His love.
He understands the groans, the cries, the laments. He is there. Take comfort in that in the midst of your trial.